Let us go then, you and I,
Into my wonderful world full of lies.
Come see my many costumes and masks,
come hear of my peculiar task.
I am but a shadow to you all
most of you think of me as an oddball.
What you don’t know is that who I am everyday
Is not what’s in my DNA.
I live with a simple code.
“Others above, and me below
My sacrifice, their happiness”
This is my road.
This is the path that I choose.
This is the path where I lose.
Though I may lose, you yet stand to gain.
Even if I may be in pain.
Do not fret for I choose this path.
And will endure its neverending wrath.
This however is not a bother.
For every time it makes me stronger.
The highs and lows will come.
Something I can’t abstain from.
You will be happy and I will not.
This will happen a lot.
What you see is someone who hides.
What you see is someone who pretends.
I do this not for attention but so that I blend in.
I joke, I laugh, I talk, but ultimately its not for me.
Inside I am but a weak tired human being.
I am scared.
I am hurt.
and I am lost.
My mind is not what you expect.
It’s not all sex, drugs, and alcohol
It’s not all school, grades, or homework.
My mind is lost.
And I hope for the day when I find it.
Until that day I will continue to hide.
I will continue to stay in the shadows.
I will continue to blend in.
Because for now, it’s all I have.