It’s never enough.
Walking on a glass floor
that is cracking
The cracks are spreading
Spreading like the pain
Each crack that grows,
Each break in the glass,
Makes everything
unstable.
Everything unsure.
The floor gets weaker,
Each footstep as though
it was a
Sledgehammer,
Hitting the floor with
tremendous force
Forceful every step of
the way
The cracks are growing
The tension is building
Every step closer to the
absolute break.
The shards are falling
Just keep pretending
Tiptoe along the cracks
Try to fix the holes.
Glass is so clear.
So perfect when it is
new
Unstained,
Unbroken,
Perfect.
Cover the cracks,
Hide the pain,
They can’t see.
They can’t know.
Convince yourself that
the stabbing pain
The stabbing pain that
consumes your every thought
Is just a bunch of
nonsense
It’s all in your head
But your head is getting
tired
The stabbing pain of the
glass slipping,
And the way your mind
keeps gripping
Onto the unrealistic
expectations
That you have for
yourself
You say that it is
nothing
You say that the glass
is still new
That the glass isn’t a
mess
That you aren’t a
mess
The glass is shards away
from falling down
The footsteps increase
in strength,
Your mind becomes
exhausted.
Your band aids didn’t
work and now they know.
They know you aren’t
perfect.
They say it’s okay,
But you just see the
pity.
It hurts worse than the
glass.
The floor falls through,
And down you go,
You try to grab onto the
ledges on the way down
But it’s just more
slippery glass.
Falling, falling down.
The glass slide is no
help.
You see the end.
You see the pile of
glass waiting for you.
Waiting at the bottom is
the taunting glass shards
They spell out your
worst fear
“You aren’t enough,
You’ve never been
enough.”
Trying desperately to
escape,
You look through the
glass,
You see the faces of the
ones you love.
You see the faces of the
ones who love you.
You see your strong,
beautiful mom
In tears.
She whispers through the
pain,
“You promised.”
Suddenly you are snapped
back to the present.
Your mom crying,
She sees your pain,
You caused her her pain.
You see in her eyes that
she knows.
She knows what you were
about to do,
She sees the glass in
your hands,
And just like the glass,
she breaks.
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