It was just another
day. Another Tuesday was passing as casually as a spring rain shower, the ones
that last no more than a blink of an eye, the ones that sometimes you never
even notice because they come and go so swiftly. This particular Tuesday was as
unremarkable as any other, neither harmful nor harmless. Or so it seemed.
I was riding my bike
along this wooded path in the late afternoon, deep enough in that the sun’s intense
rays could only faintly penetrate, and I was oddly calm. I even began humming
gently, nearly imperceptibly, feeling compelled by the serenity surrounding me
and my pale blue bike. The pleasant airiness that coursed through my veins
could have been pinned to a multitude of things, such as finally landing that
highly coveted job at the movie theater, earning a halfway-decent midyear
report card, and becoming an aunt to a beautiful baby named Alice, but in
retrospect, it had mostly to do with this fuzzy but distinct premonition in my
brain that something amazing would soon unfold.
Forward, forward,
curve, curve: my legs propelled the bicycle along the path without any
direction; they just somehow knew exactly where to go. I’d never traveled this
route prior to then, so while my body surged deeper and deeper within the woods,
my mind was blind to all sense of direction. Yet I never willed myself to halt
and return to the familiarity of my neighborhood’s beloved Goodman’s Creek or the
comforting busyness of the forest’s roadside outskirts. I was lured by an
unspeakably powerful something- the problem was that this “something” was
unknown to me at the time.
Forward, forward,
curve, curve: my legs were aching and head was spinning. Suddenly I caught a
glimpse of a grand, stunningly ornate house ahead to the right, exquisitely
plagued with both abandonment and time’s wearing effects. Its neighbors were
mere trees, but that wasn’t anything I’d ever complain about. Off of my bike
immediately without any moment of fear or hesitation, I made a beeline straight
to the rectangular hole that must have contained a door and peered into a house
not truly empty but rather filled this eerie energy of endlessly preserved
memories- everywhere, everywhere. But then those memories collided with the
essence of me, purely, unmistakably me, in a mirror that hung above a grand
piano with a crack straight down the middle. I faced the reflection head-on and
the crack began to fuse together into an image that still ultimately bore a
mightily heroic scar.
I realized that the
most beautiful things are speckled with flaws, adorned with cracks, but then glossed
over with a humble sense of confidence, gently thrumming a heartbeat that
belongs not to any single person but to the universe in its mysterious
entirety.
My body jolted to a
disorienting start. I’d been sleeping. It was all a dream. The house was my
past, the mirror was my present state of being, and the wooded path beyond the
entrance was my sparkling, open-ended future.
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